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Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Staying Positive

I've heard it said that losing weight is easy but keeping it off is hard. It's a fair and true statement. Dillypoo is still struggling to get back to goal weight.

The first part of this week was bad for me. I got to a pretty low place emotionally, berating myself for not controlling my inner child, that little bitch who just wants to eat Eat EAT.

The Professor and I made a quick trip to Houston over the weekend and I indulged that inner child with  chips and salsa, queso, barbecue ribs and dessert. I let her eat an entire Katafi and a cinnamon bundlette cake without sharing a crumb of either with The Professor.

GUILTY.

I hate feeling guilty. It's so easy to climb aboard a pity bus and drive it straight to a Taco Bell drive-thru window.

Which, thankfully, I did NOT do.

But it's hard to resist the urge to just give in and give up. I ate the cake. I might as well eat the rest of the kitchen, too. After four years, it's still a struggle to keep from falling into old habits.

Thankfully, I had my Club WW meeting last night. My meetings give me strength to continue even when I feel like a failure. Last night we discussed what it takes to not give up and having anchors to keep us steady on our journey.

It was a timely topic. It's important for me to remember where I was when I started this journey.

At my heaviest - over 200 pounds - in 2007.

And what I've accomplished since then:

You go, girl!
I've lost 50 pounds.

I've run two half-marathons and dozens of 10K and 5K races.

I've completed a tri-athlon.

I just have to focus on the positives. Life is a like a stream. There may be a boulder in my path right now, but I'll get past it and continue flowing towards a healthier, slimmer me.

2 comments:

K said...

C and I are proud of you, Dillypoo! Hang in there, you have lots to be positive about :)

HammondFam said...

You are awesome! Sorry, I kind of deserted the blog world for a few years! I just want you to know that I think you are awesome, and I am so proud of you for being an example of health and HONEST weight loss!! We don't all just lose the weight and end our journey! It continues, because cake, cookies, and chocolate still exist!! :) It's so inspirational to read your posts and see your accomplishments! Go Adele!!